True love..

Seriously, what is true love? Is it when you've found someone that you think you can't live without or is it when you found someone you know can't live without you? This poses the age old question; would you rather be with the one you love, or the one that loves you?

I've met a lot of people, both men and women who I've had relationships with, and at the time I was in the relationship, I though "this is the one", then it ended and a new victim moved into their spot. I will have to say in my life I've met 2 people who stood out.. 2 people who I could see myself staying with forever, 2 people who made me so happy and in love, 2 people who made me laugh out loud and made me look forward to waking up and hearing or seeing them in the morning, 2 people I can truly say I was in love with, and in both cases I cheated on them, and took them for granted and ruined the relationships..

Come to think of it I ruined all my relationships. I love the feeling of 'new love' where you are so excited to see the, your heart skips a beat when they call, making love is hot tantric sex everywhere and anywhere.. once that stage becomes old, I leave and relax and enjoy life awhile, then some other person comes into my life, and it starts over again.

I will say one thing, I have "never" gone out looking for a relationship, they just happen. Even though I've been fat all my life, I've basically gotten everyone I wanted.. 'I remember my friends at the Midtown Lounge would crack up when I'd see a hottie and I'd point to them and say "See that hottie over there, not only will I be fucking him tonight, but he'll be doing my lawn in the morning.".. One guy was a player, slept with every girl in the bar, but me.. then came my turn, his name was David Rodriguez, he asked me out, and I have to say he was gorgeous and charming, then after all was said n done, he braced me for the "talk" .. you know you're a nice girl, really had a wonderful time, but I'm not::::::: I stopped him::: right dead in his speech and said "Dave, have you ever had a one night stand".. to which he replied 'yes'.. I said.. "well honey, you're one".. this fool bugged me for months to go out with him again and I just laughed..

Now a million years later I'm with Michael, we're totally opposites and he's the "only" person I've never cheated on and actually married? Does this mean I found my true love? Or does this mean I simply got tired of being alone and settled? Guess I'll have to think about this one....